if Goodbye was never said
and Grief was never here
But Never is a hard thing
Never doesn’t come
not ever.
you don’t get The Never,
the time with only The Before,
no After.
and no Goodbye.
If Only could do so much…
if only it had more.
Substance.
Something more than Nothing.
If Only
That is how I learned to think.
how I thought I should think.
Because The Before had Everything
and The After has Nothing.
Nothing of value.
Nothing Pure, Nothing Made-With-Love
Nothing.
But as I look to the world.
I see so much.
I see Everything…
except what I’m looking for
from The Before.
However
That will not Drag me Down.
I will venture.
Because everything in The Before
was Earned.
and I plan to earn something equal in value.
even if The Before will never be here.
There will Always be Grief,
Always black suits and black dresses.
There is Always.
But Always is a step away from Never.