you took your hands
your big, hairy hands
and used them to hold my head under the water
gasping for air
choking
my eyes began to close
darkness surrounded me
until i woke up.
grabbing my sheets, panting
i look at my clock
it’s two in the morning
on thursday
and this is the fourth time i’ve awakened
my face is wet with tears
my heart pounds
i move to pick up my phone
but soon i remember
and am enveloped by fear.
terror
heartache
and i wait for my eyes to close again.