Repressed thoughts
Must be the happy one
Light-hearted
Because that's how you were
Before
So thats how youre supposed to be now
Its ok
I’m fine
I’m fine
I’m seriously fine
Please don’t worry
I’m sorry for making you worry
I swear i’m still the golden one
The light happy friend
The one with the jokes and the perfect life
And I am the same
Because before there was still darkness
You can’t have the day without night
The storm was there
Building inside
A hurricane of emotions
But no way to let them out
Stuck in the mold of perfection
No way out
No Knowledge of what i was feeling
Just thoughts uncontrolled
Wild
But kept tucked away
Somewhere far away
The promise of tomorrow was always my hope
But now that always feels further and further away
The world seemed more vivid
The Sky seemed more blue
Innocence and hope
Faith that everything would be ok
No need to think of the future
Live in the moment
Be happy
But deep down I wasn’t
That tucked away sadness built up
Anxiety increasing
The winds started to move faster
As the thoughts swirled around
Moving ferociously
The fierce fear of failure
Loomed over me
If you show them you’re sadness you’ll loose
You’ll be weak
You can’t be weak
Don’t be selfish
The storm built up
And tore down the wall
And now its all out
Still no knowledge of how to cope
Or identify these emotions
They’re just there
So quick,
Talk to cover it up,
You don’t want to be left behind
Topics?
Funny video
Boyfriend
The clouds
The tree
A smell
Anything
To throw them off the scent
Of how sad you actually are
Oh,
I’m sorry I feel like I’m talking about myself too much
So quick!
Board up the broken windows
It’s ok if they’re not covered fully
It just has to be enough
Ask them questions
Distract yourself
The storm is out
The sunlight isn’t shining through the clouds
Sometimes the clouds just move and allow sunlight to appear
I’ll try to stop talking though
I feel bad enough pulling you down the drain with me
I promise it's ok
I’m sorry for making you worry