I sit and watch and wish
I wish that you would notice me
But I’m too lame for you to.
So I avoid you-
I sit in windows,
Hide my face in books,
Go to the very back of the classroom.
To make matters worse you are so many people
So many totally normal people
That I would give anything to talk to-
To be friends with-
But I just can’t bring myself to say hi.
I’m too young.
Not smart enough.
I won’t be taken seriously.
I’m just not good enough.
I’ve been waiting for you to say hi and you never have.
I’ve been hoping that you'd notice me-
but how can anyone notice me if I’m invisible?
So I sit,
And I watch,
And I’m just not good enough.
And that's how life goes on,
And that's how I go on,
And that's okay.
White clothes so crisp.
Don't come close
and don't you dare ruin
The newness ;
A single smudge marking it ugly or unwearable.
An accident and it's gone
Hide the smudges
Hide the imperfections-
You must stay pure.
You must stay beautiful
You must stay white.
About a month ago, I read The Bookshop of Yesterdays and it has become one of my favorite books. Below is my review of it that I did for English but wanted to share here as well:
The Bookshop of Yesterdays: A true page turner
By Sydney Weinik-Brewer
The qualities that make up a person are hard to define. Some may define what makes up an individual by their heritage, their job, or maybe even their partner. However, when ones’ job, partner, and family suddenly change, so do they, and so does the main character in Amy Myerson’s The Bookshop of Yesterdays. The book is written with care - the plot is unpredictable, and the book itself is incredibly immersive. Myerson describes the characters and places that the main character, Miranda, interacts with in a very immersive way that makes it easy to become obsessed with the story.
Miranda grew up with her parents in California and was occasionally visited by her Uncle Billy- a seismologist and the owner of Prospero Books. He would often take Miranda on Scavenger hunts and to his bookstore; then, out of the blue, Miranda’s mother suddenly fights with Billy before he disappears from Miranda’s life. Twelve years later, Miranda receives a letter from Billy a day before he died. She soon leaves her life in Philadelphia to return back to California, following the call of Billy’s first clue and last scavenger hunt. The hunt reveals a secret that changes Miranda, her family, and her life forever, and brings into question what family means to her and who she considers herself to be.
The Bookshop of Yesterday's’ plot was exciting and unpredictable and kept me engrossed and interested in the book. The plot opens by taking the reader back to Miranda’s childhood, describing her mother’s fight with Billy from her perspective. Instantly, I was filled with questions- what had Billy done? Why was Miranda’s mother mad? Why is the book starting off by telling me this? Then, the book moves onto Billy’s mysterious note and death, then to his scavenger hunt, raising questions such as did he have a wife? Who was his wife? And who is Evelyn( a woman who was mentioned by Miranda’s mother)? In addition, as Miranda completes Billy’s scavenger hunt, she finds out more about him, but her findings lead to more questions. For example, we find out that Evelyn was Billy’s wife, but that leads to the question of why was she never talked about. We find out that Evelyn died, but that leads to the question of how and why. Since the whole plot revolved around a mysterious scavenger hunt and is narrated by a character who knows nothing about the information she is figuring out, the book maintains its exciting and unpredictable demeanor.
The book is also incredibly descriptive and immersive in the way that places, situations, and people are described. For example, Amy Myerson describes the day after Miranda’s party allowing the reader to see and almost smell and feel what Miranda is experiencing: “In the morning, the remains of last night’s party looked staged: cups scattering haphazardly across the living room floor; a fedora resting on the couch’s arm; the hum of the stereo speakers left on after the music had stopped. It was already hot, the moist air rank with spilled beer and cigarette butts.” Myerson is able to describe the sight without going overboard, yet still, say what Miranda is met by when she goes downstairs the next morning. She uses the terms such as ‘looks staged’ to paint an image of the perfect mess that was left behind after the party and then further describes the mess, allowing the reader to picture exactly what the room looked like. For example, Myerson describes the fedora, beer, and cigarette buts so that the reader can now picture a room scattered with cups, cigarette buts thrown carelessly around, beer spilled on countertops and furniture, a fedora on the couch. Myerson also describes the smell and sight of the room allowing the reader to be able to do more than just visualize it. The reader can now almost hear “The hum of the stereo speakers” and can smell the “spilled beer and cigarette buts ”cutting through the “moist air”. The reader is now fully present in the room- they can see it, feel it, hear it, smell it. Another example of this can be found only a bit farther down the page- “ The tables lining the sidewalk were overcrowded but the dim, cool dining room was mostly unoccupied. Jay (Miranda’s boyfriend) ordered two Bloody Marys. The sight of that red liquid glistening pepper sent a sharp punch to my gut.” Here, the reader can picture the brunch- a hot busy day at the restaurant; the Bloody Mary; how Miranda feels sick and anxious. The hot busy day gives off a feeling of oppression- the heat feeling beating down with limited space often brings up feelings of anxiousness, and the fact that Miranda describes the Bloody Mary as sending “a sharp punch to my gut” allows the reader to infer that she feels sick and uneasy. It is easy to become absorbed in the book when the author continuously brings the reader into every important setting, feeling, sight, and smell that the character feels and experiences.
What makes up someone is hard to define. Some may say that one’s heritage, passions, partner, or job. However, Amy Myerson strips all of that away from her main character leaving her still recognizable and the same. She is able to tackle the almost unanswerable question and, in the end, maintain the unpredictability and intensity of the book.
I have been going to Acadia National Park with my family since I was a baby. I know the rock beaches, the harbors, and the small camping store near our campsite like a second home. My mom grew up going there every summer, then, my mom began to go up with my dad, then with my brother and I. We always stay at the same campsite, and go to the same restaurants- the places feeling like a second, more beautiful version of home. Below are photos of sea wall- which is close to our campsite and of Dawn's- a camping store we go to for showers, supplies, and to talk with Dawn (the owner and a friend of the family). Acadia is my favorite place in the world- it is where I am calm, happy, and surrounded by nature.